Trust yourself

I am almost finished with my life coaching class time and am moving into hands-on coaching hours and a research paper topic. This time has been very exciting for me and quite an eye opener. I realize there are fewer things I need help with than I thought and that my life experience up to this point has all been very helpful with the mission I am embarking on now. I don’t know if my classmates just don’t recognize how theirs helps them, or if they just were never fortunate enough to experience as many useful things as I have. Either way, I feel more prepared to help myself and others than a lot of my peers do.

So word is starting to get around that I am coaching. Through a friend, I have met another person that I have only spoken to once before on the phone, about two years earlier. We’ll call her Faith for the purpose of telling this story with anonymity. Faith called me on Friday. I thought it was to ask for a web address, but it turns out she heard I was coaching and wanted to talk. We talked for almost an hour and a half. It was about 5 minutes in when I realized that this was going to be an unannounced coaching session. My first thought was, “But I haven’t prepared!” It turns out that I did what came to me naturally… I helped someone talk. This is my gift. I am a fantastic listener and an awesome facilitator of conversation so that it leads to a person feeling more empowered with choices they didn’t think they had. I didn’t need to prepare, I’ve been preparing all my life. Right now I am fine tuning. In fact, prepping might have made me over-think and panic. This often happens to people when they know a new situation is coming and they have time to make up stories in their head about all the things that could go wrong before anything even happens!

We had a lovely conversation for almost an hour and a half. She talked, she felt better, she had some clarity and for the first time heard herself talking. We always talk to ourselves and ask questions and think we’re answering. But are we really answering or just making excuses for the behavior of us or of someone else? Faith had an ‘aha moment’ when she heard herself talking. She said she couldn’t believe what she was saying. Now she was actually talking about it, she could hear it for what it really was and not just for the self talk. She was talking to me, someone who had no attachment to the situation, in a trusting and safe conversation where she was allowed to be honest with herself, without judgement. We parted with the air a little lighter.

Sunday she texted me and asked me for a little guidance, on a more angelic and spiritually related level. She wanted to know the meaning of some numbers that have been a recurring theme in her life. I communicate with my angels through number sequences they give me as messages, and she knew this. My first thought when I read her message was, “Her life is coming full circle.” I realized my chest was vibrating and that this was a Divinely guided thought… a knowingness. I was not comfortable just passing this message on without getting some backup confirmation. I am still learning to trust my guidance. I think we always second-guess guidance, but sometimes we’re smart and we follow it.

I went into my meditation room, relaxed for 5 minutes, and prayed to my spirit guides and the Archangels to guide me in a card reading. I wanted some kind of confirmation and further explanation to pass on to Faith. I shuffled a deck I had not yet used before (I was guided to use it finally) and the first card I pulled out said, “Full Circle” on it. I thanked my guides and finished pulling the cards for the rest of the reading. I passed on the info, it made sense to her, she identified with it and was grateful for the direction and guidance. I was grateful for my guidance as well. I didn’t need the confirmation, it was just a crutch, but it did confirm my feeling and made me more confident.

Always trust your guidance.